Church attendance is vital in so many ways.

Hi!

So if you all don't know. I went senior companion this transfer and I'm also training. Sister Pfile says that the Lord has catapulted me from being Junior to senior and trainer all at the same time. Her name is Sister Sorenson. She was called to the Nauvoo mission and is doing her outbound here in Colorado for 6 months. She is from Orem Utah. She has an older sister and three younger brothers. Sister Baker, my last companion, is still in the singles ward with her new companion. The Lord decided to mix it up and now there are four sisters in the ward. The bishop is loving it!
As senior and trainer, there is a different weight load and responsibility. More pressure to do good and more pressure to get baptisms. I had a personal miracle this week. I've been stressing all week and praying like crazy for the Lord to help me and also wondering why I can't baptize. I feel like there are high expections for us up in this ward, since now we can teach families too.
I didn't feel like I was really getting an answer until Sunday. I went into the Sabbath pleading for help to guide us and for help on what we can improve on so that we could baptize. I know that my desire is not bad because in the scriptures it says a dozen times that the field is white already to harvest.
So the theme of the Sacrament meeting was Prayer. When the second speaker got up, everything she was saying seemed to be directed towards me and WOW did it hit me really hard. She talked about how we are all entitled to revelation but it is us that stops it when it doesn't come. God promises to help us, not always in the way we want or in the answers we need but He does. She went on to say that sometimes God gives us promptings that require us to think, and work. I was writing down everything she said and what the spirit was telling me. Then in Relief Society this woman came and spoke about how she didn't get married until she was 33. It was to help the girls out in the ward. She talked about the Lord's timing. Don't worry, I wasn't thinking about marriage but instead everything she was talking about was pointing me back to how MUCH the Lord loves me and how He is trying my patience. The strongest thing that the spirit said to me was to "WAIT, be patient and keep the commandments then will your time come. Then will your number be called." I just keep getting this overwhelming feeling that the Lord knows that I'm trying my best and to keep improving and IT will come. Whatever that is. I just have to not worry about what people may think of me when I don't get the results that they want or that I want. God's will is different than my will. I know that it is His will to baptize and bring His children to Him but I NEED to trust Him then everything will work out the way HE wants it. I feel like the Lord is testing me and waiting for the right moment to pour out that bucket of blessings that He has been holding over my head. When IT happens, I will recognize His hand more and be more grateful then I would have been earlier in my mission.
This experience I had at church just shows how important going to church is and to ALL three meetings. We receive revelation there. We receive answers to prayers there. So don't think that church is boring because if it is boring for you then that means you aren't trying to listen to what the spirit is trying to teach you. I love church more than ever! So don't just be active in the church but be active in the gospel!

Love Ya!

Sister Sumsion